You are incredibly ambitious, you do not want an ordinary life. You want to make a meaningful contribution to the world. You, too, desire a safe and stable future. You're also drawn to life's worldly pleasures.
Your life purpose may give you with intellectual qualities that can be utilized to help others and better society. With pride and integrity, you must pursue an autonomous life path and a professional career, and you must lead society in the right way by doing something consistent.
It is up to you to foresee and decide the mission of your life depending on your capabilities, knowledge and skills. You can start with giving back to society in some form.
Tula lagna with the lagna lord Venus posited in the ninth house in conjunction with Mars and Moon; Retrograde Saturn posited in the third house with full aspect on Venus, Moon and Mars.
Lagna lord Venus posited in the Dhanu Navamsha in the eighth house; Jupiter posited in the eighth house conjunct Sun and Mercury; Moon is under Ardra Nakshatra.