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My question is long , because its all interconnected. I do not have mental peace which is what I always look for in my life. My fathers debt has multiplied and agricultural property is all ruined because of his badluck, and mainly negligence. I tried to sort it out someway where I'm not receiving enough support from him. Infact I inform my father everything before I embark, he is supportive all the time but at the time of initiation, he is all the opposite. He unnecessarily brings up heated arguments and illogical conversations. My parents do not have compability, mainly my father is not adjusting . My father ruins his own happiness at the same time doesn't let other around him live happily. He doesn't work on good, atleast he doesn't let me do good. I have and I am suffering for all the reasons above. I'm all energetic and self sustainable, unlike many other girls around me but today , I have loat all my hopes, I have lost trust in marriage, when I cannot handle my father/ parents, how can I handle a random person, I have lost my goal and i find no purpose in life. All my life i hve hardly had any major arguments with anybody, but today I have soo much in my mind and heart, I have lost my senses. Im scared that i would hurt people who love me. There are many who is happy in marriage and many struggling with the same. What do I choose. Marriage is my main concern. My fathers DOB: 10/07/1957 09: 13 am My mothers DOB : 05/08/1966 time unkown