Dear Chino, Thanks for sharing your concern. Basis your horoscope, you are currently in a phase of life where romantic inclinations are at its peak, this phase for you will last untill end of the year 2023. Your overall personality is such that you can definitely have wrong perceptions about your self and live in delusion for long, not only in matters of relationship but other areas of your life too. This deception gets accentuated further in matters of relationship, where you will always be imaginary, not grounded in reality and having very unclear perception. Consumption of marijuana and such substances which can distort your perception further or make you imagine things that don't exist is not helping your situation anyways. Please do take appropriate medical advise to help you overcome this situation. Astrologically, I would suggest to have a pet dog if you don't have one and try to find a dog which is black in colour and very short tail or no tail. This pet will help you in matters of your relationships and confusion there. You should express to the girl your feelings before December 2023, its possible that if she has any affection towards you then she will reciprocate. Else anyways post year 2023, this person won't be in your life and thoughts and you will move away from her. Hope this helps your situation.